i am literally losing my mind.























Je n'ai pas d'espoir.





















































































































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I shut my eyes & all the world drops dead;
I lift my lids & all is born again.
[I think I made you up inside my head.]

The stars go waltzing out in blue and red,
& arbitrary blackness gallops in:
I shut my eyes & all the world drops dead.

I dreamed that you bewitched me into bed
& sung me moon-struck, kissed me quite insane.
[I think I made you up inside my head.]

God topples from the sky, hell's fires fade:
Exit seraphim & Satan's men:
I shut my eyes & all the world drops dead.

I fancied you'd return the way you said,
But I grow old & I forget your name.
[I think I made you up inside my head.]


I should have loved a thunderbird instead;
At least when spring comes they roar back again.

I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.
[I think I made you up inside my head.]



-s.p.