i should've died a hundred thousand times teetering stoned off the side of buildings.[nobody loved me & nobody even tried]

"i don't want to see anyone, sophie i don't even want to see you and you're my lover"

AS FOR USUAL.

i will record the events that i can recal, which are few and far between.

hmm.

well.

lets see.

sometime this week.

me and kris howe hung out with some boy named richard.

we bought some wine n such.

and went to some bar in le ghetto. the happy dog or some shit.

we were supposed to see a band.

but me and kris were drinking for too long.

so we missed them.

and just i dont know.

stood around like drunken idiots.

during this time i hurt my knee , not sure how. but it still hurts many days after.

after we dropped kris howe off.

me and richard went to i dont even know.

the metroparks?and mathed for a bit.

and i got home at like 4.

and sue was not happy.

hmm....

well.

i dont feel like thinking

so i will write about last night.

sooo.

me

and

kris, the only person more perverted than me in this world,

went

to b-side.

so

lets re-live.

paul picked me up.

and me and the wife andhim went to his house for some pre-drinking cocktails.

i had some delish stiff drink ..i think it was tequila. and kris had some brews. YUCK.

it was perfect for getting me in the mood for drinking.

so when we were suffecintly intoxicated, me and paul and wife picked up darren.

went to coventry. and darren realized he forgot his wallet,

so me and kris just went into b-side and they went to pick up his wallet.

right when we walked in, we saw b-vaughn, who i didnt realize was so short.

and emily and her friend dancing.

and twin. and her idiot boy that she went with.

so i started dancing with emily.

and asked b to buy me a drink.

gin and tonic double. perfect.

so i started dancing with all the other idiots who looked like they were having seizures.

and it was fun.

saw some boy. &that was very ackward while i was having a merp.

and all was lovley.

so we wree dancing like fiends.

and i was getting more and more messy.

and then i somehow got kicked out?

some guy was yelling at me.

and too close to me.

and he kept telling me to hurry up and leave.

and kristina said

"she brought her entire beanie babie collection with her, and she has to make sure she gets them all" or something like that.

i love that bitch.

so i literally took like an hour.

and then the guy was getting pOed and all up in my grill.

so i guess paul told him to give me space.

i dont know.

got home.

passed out.

Woke up with Joy Division stuck in my head, because thats the only noise i remember from last night.

went to school.

still drunk.

such a mess.

all my moneys gone.

and cards.

i am such an idiot.

so i went to the mall after school.

then home.

then smoothies with my lover.

and we worked.

saw alot of drunk people in legacy.

LoLzZcoaster.

got home a few hours ago.

now im just chillin at the harris - inn.

i am supposed to go to alexs and adams party.

but i am so drained from being an idiot, that i cant.

general thoughts for this idiot:

i need to go tanning.

[my freckles are fading ]

i need to start drinking coffee again.

me and kristina are seriosuly the biggest perverts ever.

all we talk about is peen and things of that nature.

and

i need a boyfriend.

because i need stability. and i am crazy. and i hate accidently hooking up with people i shouldnt be.

BOOM.

i need to go get sooo much water.

[i always forget how good joy division is, im so happy i just found a bunch of their cds under my bed]